It's been a while since I have uploaded my last journal entry, so I decided to write a new one. First of all, I am going to inform you about some life issues. My situation hasn't really changed..
well it for sure didn't become better... Two days ago I had to go to the dentist. I was really scared.. And my fear got to be justified... Yea the doctor had to do some stuff,I got an injection and all that shit, but an accident happened.. Cus during the process the dentist cut into my tongue (yeehay...) so the wound had to be sewed.. really awesome.. means since monday I cannot eat anymore.. even drinking is almost a mission impossible.. I am damn hungry and cannot really eat.. I have lost 5kg by now.. which is crucial because I am very slim.. (doctors even believe that I have anorexia nervosa, but that's a different story, just to make that clear I know that I don't have this, lets call it "sickness", I just never put on weight. ) So yea my parents are frustrated and worried.. Anyways, in addition to that my teeth hurt like hell and I couldn't go to school yesterday and today because of the weight loss which made me extremely weak, I pass out during the day and such awesome shit. Other life stuff, well I am mentally also not really okay. I cry during the day and at night I cry myself to sleep.. I am so frustrated and sad, partly I don't even know why. Some time ago my dad and my mom, separately told me that they don't really love each other anymore... but they won't get divorced because of money issues and the house and such stuff.. there is always a bad and negative atmosphere at home.. and I can hardly bear it... ;( My dad is sorta aggressive and tends to shout a lot.. whatever.. I guess I have bored you enough already..
You might have noticed that it's been ages ago since I have posted a new drawing.. well I had my birthday around 3 weeks ago, and I have got a new computer, an i mac. And on my former laptop I had windows.. so as I found out SAI, the drawing program I am usually using doesn't work on an i mac.. (if you know more about this then please inform me). It's not a that big issue as eventually my dad will put the windows system onto my iMac as well, because I need that system for school stuff as well. And as soon as thats on my computer I can download sai again.. but as long as that's not done, I am unfortunately unable to post or draw new stuff, so I really hope that you guys can be a little more patient!
I can only offer one thing, to scan and upload some sketches and stuff I did on paper. Leave a comment below if you are interested in that.
I hope that I didn't waste your time with this, but I still wanna thank you for reading my journal entry.
I also hope that you guys are feeling better than I am, wish you all a nice day!
Remember, I love you all!